Yesterday, I went to the gym and experienced some of the worst anxiety I’ve ever felt. The whole entire time I was there felt like an entirnity. I felt like everyone was looking at me and watching me. I felt like everyone was judging me. I couldn’t even focus on what I was doing, and I couldn’t wait to get out of there.
I am definitely not ready to be going to the gym yet. I am trying to lose weight, but right now I am not comfortable in a gym. The biggest reason for that is seeing people I know.
I don’t want the pity encouragement and the “oh good for you’s.” I don’t want to see you again and have you ask me how working out is going. It puts too much pressure on me.
There’s too many people around. I prefer working out at home for now, or a small group class. Or swimming, then at least I can hide in the water.
~ Me
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